Thursday, January 25, 2007

the ways to 'Give them Wings'
Caught up in the laws. Who me? NeverI say! I go my won way, always have always will. I am an independent thinking person, leading my self in my own way. but hey, look where that has gotten me. 58 years further down the road and still searching for the answers to what do I do with this life? Does it take 58 years to admit to yourself that you have made choices all along the way already. Choices that have set you life in motion on a daily basis to arrive at this place that is all so familliar and yet not quite comfortable. I have become after this life of resistance and rebellion, just that rebellious and unhappy with the status quo. Not just with "the world" but with my own world.

I have been ignorant of the laws. What laws? The laws of the universe. The natural laws that govern everything and everyone whether you consciously participate or not.

Getting up on the "wrong side of the bed" can set into motion a wrong kind of day, in which you set the mood for the entire day. Is it ment to be that this will just be a "bad" day. The "law" actually says, it's up to me. It's not in the air, not someone else getting in my way, not going to somehow automaticaly be a bad day. By the laws of the universe "I" am creating that day just the way I order it to be. As if I, following the laws, have no choice but make it what it is.

And that is exactly what I have chosen to do, to make it a miserable day. I, me and my subconscious, my spirit, my true self will it to be by participating in the belief that this is what the day is making of itself. When the reality is that I am believeing that this is the way it is. No! I have believed in it. I am living it as if that is the only way, and so I have manifested my own fate for this day. "I" have created it all. "I" have believed that this is way it is going to be and it is so.
My participation in a crappy day has created a crappy day because that is the choice I made.

There is another way. There are laws that give me the freedom to create a different reality . To follow a different direction. To stop and step out of bed from a new angle. It may be ever so slight a change, but even a 1 degree change of direction on the 360 degree circle is infinitely different when followed to its conclusion.

I have taken a new direction and will explore the possibilities and new conclusions, because the ruts in the old path are too deep to see any goals or outcomes that I can live with. It is not jsut me on the path any more. I am a part of a much bigger picture and outcome. I have a family, friends , community and world to be a part of.In a much grander fashion then the rebellious and resistant fellow I once knew, I am reborn as a seeker, a student and facilitator of huge potentials and worlds of possibilities. I am living the laws with new respect and acceptance. I can live with the knowledge that we all are participants whether we are consciously aware or not and I choose consciousness. I want to not only see the path before me but to activily create it. It is mine and I own it. This life is mine and not one moment more to waste.

I LOVE MINE!